Where We Are

The hubby and I decided a while ago that we would starting talking about babies when we have been married 1 year.  Since that time is coming up, I'm beginning to think more and more about it.  Everyone has their own opinion on when to have children: wait 3 years, wait 5 years, go for it, wait at least 10 years.  I think it is different for everyone, so I try to take those recommendations with a grain of salt. 

I have a big event coming up in July, so my plan (in my own mind, sometimes I think hubby is on the same page, other times not) is to begin trying in August.  I have really been thinking about this, and am not sure if I am ready.  Are you ever ready though?  But we aren't having a baby right now, so I have got some time to prepare.

I am in the process of making a baby bucket list, a list of things to do before you have a baby.  I will post that sometime soon. 

I have also really been praying about the situation.  Waiting/expecting to hear from God as to when is the correct time.  I have been reading the stories of Hannah and Sarah in the Old Testament.

Hannah couldn't have children.  She prayed and prayed, and one day pleaded with God.  Before he had even answered her, she thanked him for what he did, and went on her way.  She felt confident God would answer her prayer.  This story means a lot to me because I prayed to God to be healed from a physical ailment, and had to have the faith that he could/would.  When he did allow healing, I knew it was because of my faith. 

Sarah couldn't have children and was old.  God told her that she would have a child in 1 year, but she jumped the gun and got her slave woman to have a child with her husband, Abraham.  And in 1 year, Sarah had a baby, too.  God blessed her even though she didn't listen. 

I realize that I have to be obedient to what God says.  If he says not to have a child right now, I have to obey.  Something that I heard the other day was, "Are you being obedient to what God has blessed you with now?"  So I ask myself, am I being the best wife I can be right now?  I need to work on being the best wife, so I can be a good mother, too.  It kind of put things in perspective as I'm attemping to patiently wait on baby making time.  I'm here, I'm ready (I think), I'm willing.

Here We Go

So I've been thinking about starting an anonymous blog as a way to release my thoughts as me and my husband lead up to and begin to try for a baby!  So here it goes.  I just want to write my thoughts, my struggles, my hopes, etc.  Hopefully, in a year or so, I will able to post that we are positively pregnant with a beautiful baby, perfectly made by God!