Intentions

So I have been having this urge lately (really like a day or two) to sponsor a child through Compassion International or Food for the Hungry.  I told my hubby tonight that I wanted to do that, and I came upon a realization.  Do I want to sponsor a child to help a child, or am I attempting to fill a void of wanting my own child?  I do think it would be good for us to do something as a couple like that, to help a child that needs it.  But I think what I really want is to connect with a child, feel like a child needs me, or that I am affecting the well-being of a child-- my own child. 

This, if anything, confirms my desire for a baby.  My friend told me today that God puts prayers in our heart for things that are to be.  Lately I have been praying for my future baby.  She was saying that I am praying for that because it is a desire of my heart, and God wants to give me the desires of my heart, in HIS timing.  That is the kicker.  His timing, not mine.  Honestly though, I'm okay with waiting until God tells me to.  I'm just trying to discern his voice.

I learned in my Bible Study last night that God speaks through the Bible.  The verses I'm meditating on are:

Isaiah 33:6- And there shall be stability in your times, an abundance of salvation, wisdom, and knowledge; the reverent fear and worship of the Lord is your treasure and His. (Amplified Bible)

Zephaniah 3:17- For the Lord your God is living among you.  He is a mighty savior.  He will take delight in you with gladness.  With his love, he will calm all your fears.  He will rejoice over you with joyful songs. (New Living Translation)

While I am not sure how God will reveal these as relavant in my life right now, but I am thinking on them and on Him often.