The Attempts Commence

It's about to commence...our baby making attempts.  Tomorrow is the day.  I was nervous, but now I am ready!  The only issue is the Dollar Store is out of ovulation tests!  I had to order them online here:

http://www.accuratepregnancytests.com/index.html

They are pretty cheap!  You get some discounts for ordering in bulk-- not like 100 bulk, but more like 5-20.  It's great.  Oh well, they will get here when they get here.

I'm giving it all to God.  The other day I started thinking about everything, the planning, the what ifs, the things that COULD happen.  It started to dirving me crazy and I just gave it completely to God.  I asked God to take care of it, to let it happen when it happens.  I can't worry about it or control anything about it.  It's the one thing you have NO control over.  I'm much more at ease now that I know that God has it under control.

The hubby and I are planning a vacation in November, so we have decided that if it doesn't happen right away (aka this month) we are going to wait until after vacation to keep trying.  If we got pregnant now, I would be ~16 weeks pregnant on the trip.  If we got pregnant anytime after August up until the trip, I could be pretty sick with morning sickness.  Again-- COULD.  Everyone is different, so I have no idea.  But I'm not risking it.  So we will just play it by ear. 

We have a fun date planned for tomorrow and we have been looking forward to it all week.  I want things to be relaxed, non-pressured, and FUN! 

Here it goes!

It's a....

So I have a cyst...a 6 cm one.  On my right ovary.  I called this morning and scheduled an appointment for Thursday, but the pain got worse throughout the day.  I called the doctor back and got an appointment this afternoon.  I'm not pregnant, but they did do an ultrasound and found a 2 inch cyst.  I got freaked out and hyperventilated without realizing it, and then almost passed out and threw up.  Story of my life.  The doctor said it will be okay, it should go away on its own.  I'm worried about it rupturing and hurting like crazy.  She said it shouldn't affect my fertility, which is a plus.  My anxiety is gone, but the pain isn't completely.  I'm sure it will get better, I'm just glad I know what it is now.

Anxious

I feel ancy right now.  I'd like to think it is because I don't want to do my homework, but I think it is deeper than that.  There is a chance I could be pregnant.  I have been having some pelvic/ovary pain for the last few days.  I looked up my symptoms online and it says it could be ovarian cysts.  That freaks me out.  It could just be a UTI because I have been drinking a ton of water lately.  I think I'm going to make an appointment with my OB/GYN this week to find out.

I took a pregnancy test today.  Two actually.  I took them 6 days before my period is expected, so I know they wouldn't show up positive even if I was.  I just realized I would be kind of sad if I wasn't.  I've had months where I thought I was before, but I was okay with not being pregnant.  I think I will be sad if I'm not.  But there is always next month if I'm not.  I will go to my OB/GYN this week and get a urine test, a pregnancy test, and get them to check for ovarian cysts.  Maybe the pain is normal; I'm not sure.  Maybe I'm just paranoid and notice things more than usual.  Time will tell!

Calendar

Here's a visual of the calendar I created last week: