Two Week Wait

The dreaded "two week wait" has begun. I've been analyzing every single twinge and feeling.  I know I'm not supposed to do that, but how can I not?  I have been really tired lately, but it comes in spurts.  All of a sudden I'll just be exhausted and I sleep very soundly.  And I feel better after taking a nap.  Maybe that's just normal for me, but who knows?  I have also felt a little pressure in my lower abdomen--in particular 2-3 days ago. 

I had a wild hair and took a pregnancy test yesterday.  Not really sure why I did because it's way way way too early to tell.  It was negative of course.  If my ovulation prediction is correct, I can begin testing next Wednesday or Thursday.  AF (Aunt Flo) is supposed to come on Saturday or Sunday.  I'll begin taking tests each morning just to see if one shows up with a BFP (big fat positive)! 

I've told myself that if I'm not pregnant it's okay.  I'll just busy myself with preparing for our vacation in November.  Then we can try again for a baby.  I'm trying to be excited about both options-- being pregnant and not being pregnant to have fun on vacation.  I'd really rather be pregnant, but I have to have a backup plan so I don't get disappointed. 

God is in control, so I know whatever happens is for the best.  It might take me a day or two to really accept that if I'm not pregnant, but it will be okay.  I'll be okay.  I'm just trying to enjoy the experience.

Next Wednesday (when I will begin testing) isn't that far away.  And knowing me, I'll begin testing on Tuesday-- just in case.  I swear I'm neurotic sometimes.  I'm sure other women are the same way, though.  I don't feel too crazy.  It's somewhat normal I think.

So at the end of next week I will know for sure (maybe at the end of next week or the beginning of the next) whether I'm pregnant or not.  Here is to the next week!