We are entering into the 7th month of trying to conceive. I'm not going to take any ovulation tests this month since I know I'm ovulating (per bloodwork and 2-3 months of positive ovulation tests). We are just going to try every other day. We started on day 5-- too early I know. But the more the merrier, right? I'm on day 11 now. Doctors always choose even days, and we've always done even days, but we are switching it up. Watch out!
Oh yea-- the semen analysis was normal! PTL! I don't know what I really expected, but I am so excited that things are great. It means I have eggs, he has sperm, and we are in the baby-making business.
Updates to follow...
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Feeling Better
I'm feeling much better about everything...I just needed a day or two to sulk. I'm looking towards the positive:
If we get pregnant next month, it will be a week or so after Valentine's Day.
If we get pregnant in March, we will find out a week before my birthday.
If we get pregnant in April, our due date will be Christmas day.
If we get pregnant in May, it will be the best Mother's Day gift.
If we aren't pregnant in May, we are going to stop for a while. Just like I've mentioned early in this blog, I have a big work event every year in July. I don't want to be less than 3 months pregnant while there. It's an entire week and mostly outside in the hot weather. So that is four more cycles left to make a baby.
The hubby goes for his semen analysis on Monday. I'm praying we get good results. It's kind of like I want something to be wrong so at least we know what is causing this infertility, but then again I don't want anything to be wrong. It's weird, really.
It's funny how cyclical this whole process is. I'm calm and methodical at the beginning of each cycle, then we try try try, and I wait wait wait. Then (so far at least) we get negative results and I'm sad. Then a day or two later I'm back at the beginning of the cycle. A cyclical cycle.
Anyway, I'm enjoying another couple of weeks enjoying sushi and wine, and my husband all to myself. God has a plan, and I'm still trying to trust in it and believe in it. Things will all turn out okay.
If we get pregnant next month, it will be a week or so after Valentine's Day.
If we get pregnant in March, we will find out a week before my birthday.
If we get pregnant in April, our due date will be Christmas day.
If we get pregnant in May, it will be the best Mother's Day gift.
If we aren't pregnant in May, we are going to stop for a while. Just like I've mentioned early in this blog, I have a big work event every year in July. I don't want to be less than 3 months pregnant while there. It's an entire week and mostly outside in the hot weather. So that is four more cycles left to make a baby.
The hubby goes for his semen analysis on Monday. I'm praying we get good results. It's kind of like I want something to be wrong so at least we know what is causing this infertility, but then again I don't want anything to be wrong. It's weird, really.
It's funny how cyclical this whole process is. I'm calm and methodical at the beginning of each cycle, then we try try try, and I wait wait wait. Then (so far at least) we get negative results and I'm sad. Then a day or two later I'm back at the beginning of the cycle. A cyclical cycle.
Anyway, I'm enjoying another couple of weeks enjoying sushi and wine, and my husband all to myself. God has a plan, and I'm still trying to trust in it and believe in it. Things will all turn out okay.
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Not Pregnant
WARNING: The following is a hormonal rant.
I'm not pregnant. And I'm hormonal and spotting. And bloated. I feel fat. I want to diet, but don't feel like it. I tell myself that maybe if I lose 10 pounds by eating well, run 3 times a week, drink green tea, and do yoga I'll get pregnant. Right now, all I want to do is go to sleep. And it's 8:25 p.m. I just read where Diet Coke can make you gain weight. I knew this, but shouldn't have read it while I was in a foul mood. I'm not pregnant.
P.S. Ok, that is the end of my hormonal rant. Tomorrow is a brand new day and for that I am grateful. I'm also grateful for a wonderful, supportive, hilarious husband who makes each and every day and situation a million times better.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Spotting...
I started spotting today. I’m not going to lie, I’m kind of discouraged. Then I go to www.twoweekwait.com and check out symptoms of those people who spotted and still were pregnant. It could happen still, I guess. Maybe it’s implantation bleeding? I spot before every cycle though, so who knows?
I think back to what I said to the hubby last night before bed. I’m at this point where I’m okay if it’s not the right timing to have a baby. I want God’s will, not mine. If it’s His will for it to happen now, awesome. If it’s not, I don’t want it to. Living that out is going to be harder than saying it though. But I really do believe it. I want God’s best for me and my family.
I’m believing in this truth today:
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neitherare your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
“As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts."
-Isaiah 55:8-9
God, You’re will be done. Not mine. I believe You are a good God. I believe You will bless me and my husband with a baby. Help me to trust in Your timing and Your plan. I love You.
I think back to what I said to the hubby last night before bed. I’m at this point where I’m okay if it’s not the right timing to have a baby. I want God’s will, not mine. If it’s His will for it to happen now, awesome. If it’s not, I don’t want it to. Living that out is going to be harder than saying it though. But I really do believe it. I want God’s best for me and my family.
I’m believing in this truth today:
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neitherare your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
“As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts."
-Isaiah 55:8-9
God, You’re will be done. Not mine. I believe You are a good God. I believe You will bless me and my husband with a baby. Help me to trust in Your timing and Your plan. I love You.
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Testing, Testing...1, 2, 3
I've taken two pregnancy tests. I'm counting the time I ovulated on day 15 of my cycle as my true ovulation date. So, I've taken a test 10 dpo and 11 dpo. Negative. I told myself I wouldn't take one until 12 dpo, but yea right! I have 5 tests, so most likely I'll use them all.
I am feeling very hopeful this cycle, but my stupid head keeps telling myself to not get my hopes up. I just have to have faith that God knows what He is doing, no matter if I'm pregnant this month or not.
I'm having some symptoms this month-- sore breasts, VERY emotional, migraines, acne. We will see if this is just because my hormones are balancing out or if I'm pregnant.
If I'm not pregnant, the hubby is going to get a semen analysis on the 23rd. Because we live in town he can do it at home and take it in. He's still not looking forward to it, but is going to do it because he wants to know how everything checks out.
I need to remember that God is good. He knows what He is doing. The negativity does not come from Him. But I am sure praying (and hoping) that this is THE month. The month where He blesses us with a little baby in my belly. I'll keep the blog updated as the next few days pan out.
I am feeling very hopeful this cycle, but my stupid head keeps telling myself to not get my hopes up. I just have to have faith that God knows what He is doing, no matter if I'm pregnant this month or not.
I'm having some symptoms this month-- sore breasts, VERY emotional, migraines, acne. We will see if this is just because my hormones are balancing out or if I'm pregnant.
If I'm not pregnant, the hubby is going to get a semen analysis on the 23rd. Because we live in town he can do it at home and take it in. He's still not looking forward to it, but is going to do it because he wants to know how everything checks out.
I need to remember that God is good. He knows what He is doing. The negativity does not come from Him. But I am sure praying (and hoping) that this is THE month. The month where He blesses us with a little baby in my belly. I'll keep the blog updated as the next few days pan out.
Thursday, January 12, 2012
High Progesterone Level
My day 22 progesterone level was 14.4!!! Last month on day 21 it was 4.8. God is good. It is high and good. This either means I'm pregnant or I'm ovulating well!
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
The New Action Plan
Today I went and saw a different doctor in the OB/GYN practice I go to. It's the same practice that the PA is in. I had originally scheduled with one doctor, but she got called away to two deliveries. After waiting for two hours, I finally saw a different doctor than I had originally been scheduled with. God sure has a sense of humor. I had put a lot of thought into which doctor to see and why and then when it came down to it, God had a different plan. And by that time (2 hours in) I was totally cool with God's plan. And I loved the doctor!!
So, now down to the good stuff. She basically said she wasn't all the way convinced I had PCOS but that Metformin wouldn't hurt me to take it. In fact, she said studies show that Metformin increases fertility either way. She said I don't have to take Clomid if I don't want to. She said if I don't feel comfortable it's not our only option. She said 99.5% of her patients conceive a child. There is hope for me yet!
Basically she broke it down like this...you have to make sure the woman has eggs, the man has sperm, and that it can meet together and make a baby.
Eggs
We did a progesterone level today. Last time it was taken on day 21 it was 4.8. This doctor said that was a fine level and that it shows I am ovulating. She said we can add progesterone cream if necessary. She said she knows I have eggs and am ovulating. We will see what this progesterone level turns out to be.
Sperm
She gave me an order for hubby to get a semen analysis. I hear you can do the "collection" at home since we live in town so hopefully it won't be so bad.
Meeting Them Together
If all of that checks out and we still aren't getting pregnant, she has to do a laproscope and a dye test to make sure I don't have endometriosis and that everything flows well. I have to be put to sleep for those procedures so I'm really hoping we don't have to get to that point. But if we do, then God will bring us through it.
I feel good because we have a plan of action. I still have hope and am praising God that he has blessed me with a great husband and knowledgeable doctors. I am blessed.
So, now down to the good stuff. She basically said she wasn't all the way convinced I had PCOS but that Metformin wouldn't hurt me to take it. In fact, she said studies show that Metformin increases fertility either way. She said I don't have to take Clomid if I don't want to. She said if I don't feel comfortable it's not our only option. She said 99.5% of her patients conceive a child. There is hope for me yet!
Basically she broke it down like this...you have to make sure the woman has eggs, the man has sperm, and that it can meet together and make a baby.
Eggs
We did a progesterone level today. Last time it was taken on day 21 it was 4.8. This doctor said that was a fine level and that it shows I am ovulating. She said we can add progesterone cream if necessary. She said she knows I have eggs and am ovulating. We will see what this progesterone level turns out to be.
Sperm
She gave me an order for hubby to get a semen analysis. I hear you can do the "collection" at home since we live in town so hopefully it won't be so bad.
Meeting Them Together
If all of that checks out and we still aren't getting pregnant, she has to do a laproscope and a dye test to make sure I don't have endometriosis and that everything flows well. I have to be put to sleep for those procedures so I'm really hoping we don't have to get to that point. But if we do, then God will bring us through it.
I feel good because we have a plan of action. I still have hope and am praising God that he has blessed me with a great husband and knowledgeable doctors. I am blessed.
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Two Times?
I ovulated twice this month? I think it's a medical mystery/miracle. I kind of think it's my body (AKA God) showing me and my doctor that yes-- I am ovulating. Here are pictures to prove it:
Day 12
Day 15
I took an OPK the day after I ovulated on Day 12 and it was negative-- barely a line. Therefore, I thought it was safe to say that I had ovulated. We acted as such. And then today I just had a feeling I was ovulating. Sex drive up, abdominal pressure, etc. And low and behold-- a darker line than the test line.
I read online that some women have two waves of ovulation-- it means you ovulate two eggs. Or you have two chances of having a baby (or two). Either way, I'm not weirded out by it too much. I'm just hopeful that God has a plan and His plan involves a baby.
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