Spotting...

I started spotting today.  I’m not going to lie, I’m kind of discouraged.  Then I go to www.twoweekwait.com and check out symptoms of those people who spotted and still were pregnant.  It could happen still, I guess.  Maybe it’s implantation bleeding?  I spot before every cycle though, so who knows?

I think back to what I said to the hubby last night before bed.  I’m at this point where I’m okay if it’s not the right timing to have a baby.  I want God’s will, not mine.  If it’s His will for it to happen now, awesome.  If it’s not, I don’t want it to.  Living that out is going to be harder than saying it though. But I really do believe it.  I want God’s best for me and my family.

I’m believing in this truth today:

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neitherare your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
“As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts."
-Isaiah 55:8-9

God, You’re will be done. Not mine.  I believe You are a good God.  I believe You will bless me and my husband with a baby.  Help me to trust in Your timing and Your plan.  I love You.