Feeling Better

I'm feeling much better about everything...I just needed a day or two to sulk.  I'm looking towards the positive:

If we get pregnant next month, it will be a week or so after Valentine's Day.
If we get pregnant in March, we will find out a week before my birthday.
If we get pregnant in April, our due date will be Christmas day.
If we get pregnant in May, it will be the best Mother's Day gift.

If we aren't pregnant in May, we are going to stop for a while.  Just like I've mentioned early in this blog, I have a big work event every year in July.  I don't want to be less than 3 months pregnant while there.  It's an entire week and mostly outside in the hot weather.  So that is four more cycles left to make a baby.

The hubby goes for his semen analysis on Monday.  I'm praying we get good results.  It's kind of like I want something to be wrong so at least we know what is causing this infertility, but then again I don't want anything to be wrong.  It's weird, really.

It's funny how cyclical this whole process is.  I'm calm and methodical at the beginning of each cycle, then we try try try, and I wait wait wait.  Then (so far at least) we get negative results and I'm sad.  Then a day or two later I'm back at the beginning of the cycle.  A cyclical cycle. 

Anyway, I'm enjoying another couple of weeks enjoying sushi and wine, and my husband all to myself. God has a plan, and I'm still trying to trust in it and believe in it.  Things will all turn out okay.